Hello all!, 

This post gave me the strength to write something i have seldom written. Im going to call it my testimony. I agree
with you, Earl and i could say that my life has proven 
this. When i was a baby, i wasnt supposed to be born. 
Yet by the grace of God, I was a healthy and normal baby. 
From a young age, I exhibited the signs of depression, yet 
i was a Christian. My parents thought it 
was for attention, and it probably was, but it was also a 
cry for help. From age 15 on, I have made attempts to end 
my life. Every time i made it through. I have seldom had counseling, yet i have been on antidepressants on and off. 
The truth is, I am learning to go to the Perfect Counselor. He's so wonderful to me. He's given me many chances at life. I know God wants me to live, and Satan wants me to die, 
because I am a messenger of God's and i know God has a plan
 for my life. I know i dont post much, in fact few probably 
know me on this list, but i have been on here for months. 
Last June, after my son was born, we were living at my inlaws' house, and i tried to take many prozac. Thank the Lord, this attempt didnt work either. The last attempt i 
made was about 2 and a half months ago. I dont want to die. 
I want to live for the Lord. Please know that i love him very much. God has shown me that i should never do that again. Life never truly gets that desperate. God will get us through. I am telling you all this, because i feel 
it is necessary to say goodbye to the hurt i feel. So 
in the presence of you all, with this testimony i say 
goodbye to the hurt that Satan has put inside my 
heart. God has a life of joy for me to live. I want to live
for him .
Thank you for listening. 

Love, 
Holly

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